Day 85
Another work week starts today. In a sense I feel that very conflicted about going to work. I know I need to go to work because we have to have some cash flow coming in. Having a job locks in Jackie’s health insurance which leads to her treatment. Work is somewhere that I can be able to converse with others as well. However, I do not like leaving my wife at home. I think about her the whole day and call constantly to make sure she is feeling alright. Then again, if Jackie didn’t have Hodgkin’s I would probably due the same.
Jackie is starting her neupogen series today. Five days of straight shots to stimulate bone marrow production. Day 4 and 5 are always the days she has bone pain. Her schedule towards the treatment is pretty much understood by now. The first day of chemo she sleeps all day and wakes up feeling nauseous. The first 4 days she has a metallic taste in her mouth which can not be rid of. Her blood counts start to drop probably around the beginning of her off week, so they stimulate her with neupogen before it can drop. She is fine for her off week and then it starts over again.
Time seems to be going in slow motion. My first year at this job seemed to fly by because we were constantly busy with wedding preparations, trips, and playing house. Now that Jackie is getting treatment the weeks slowly roll by. I wish they would hurry up and Jackie would be on her last ABVD cycle. It has only been less than three months, but it seems like years to me. I hope remission comes to her soon because both her and I need it!