Day 111-112
The news this past week has been all about our president wanting a country that is bipartasan. Our country is basically run by two different parties that are suppose to make decisions for the well being of the country together. Having two different political parties with two different ideals and values make it difficult to become one united country.
Jackie and my life these past few months have been split. We have two lives, one is called “on week” and the other is “off week.” On week are those weeks which Jackie has chemo treatments. Usually it starts on a Friday where she sits three hours hooked up to an IV. She spends the weekend on the couch or in front of the computer. On a scale of 1-10 she is usually around a 4. There are bouts of stomach upsets, bloating, fatigue, nausea, and vomitting. Some can be taken care of easily with Zofran and others just have to be fought through. I spend the weekend quietly at home watching my wife. Every sigh she makes or spasm in her movement alerts my attention. We never go out this weekend because nauseasness may be exacerbated by any car ride. I tend to try and cook her delicious food which she is only able to take down less than 50% of what her normal intake is. Her taste is altered by the medications and life savors have been her choice of flavor to counteract any altered senses. The week continues with 5 consecutive shots of Neupogen and bone pain that feels like she is about to grow a foot taller tomorrow.
Off week is more of a norm to us. Jackie can work, exercise, eat, and visit friends and family. Her apetite in reintroduced and so is her energy level. We can spend the week watching movie, playing tennis, and eating ice cream. My life is a lot more relaxed because I worry less about her physical and mental atitude. However off week always seems to be a lot faster than on week.
One more month to go and then radiation. There is always a sense of anxiousness because we are so close, at least I think. Hopefully our lives will soon meld into one identity. Jackie and I can continue our nomal lives that were left behind in November 2009 and look forward to our marriage in the future.