Day 59
My mind often drifts and wanders after a day of work. I started going through some wedding pictures and ended up watching my wedding slideshow. Even though my wedding was only eight months away, I feel that the stages of marriage have flown by. My honeymoon stage has definitely been reduced. I no longer feel as much of the sappy and mushy feelings felt during this time. Instead, I have advanced to a feeling of true love. Jackie’s well being is the most important thing to me. It is my existence and my obsession. The life from my wedding day is long past. So much has changed, my mind has matured, and my marriage has become real. I must have skipped a few years since those eight months, hopefully I didn’t miss much.
Jackie’s chest x-rays came out negative. So far, so good. Her second treatment seems to show a lot less side effects than the prior. I continue to cross my fingers. She will be going in for another pulmonary function test. I like to think the doctor’s are being extra careful with her because she is my wife. Due to this sudden appointment, Jackie will come back early. I no longer have to ponder about unchangeable events.