Day 57
I’m going to be alone this week. After a long debate on whether or not Jackie should go home or stay here with me on her off week. I did not want Jackie to go due to obvious reasons. However, I did not want Jackie to be alone during the day while I’m gone. So the dilemma was between my own selfish desires or the well being of my wife. Once I put it that way, the decision was easy. At least, Jackie won’t be gone long. She will be back in five days. I miss her very dearly but it does give me some alone time to self reflect and retreat to my quiet time. It is eerie how quiet things can get by oneself. I sit here pondering on these last 2 months with not a single distraction around. The silence in the room is a bore and makes me lackluster. Life is not meant to be along. I was listening to a Harvard psychologist talk about “happiness” today. “People who are in relationships are more likely to be happy.” Personally, I can concur. I have never known what self sacrifice is until I got married. I have not been able to comprehend love before until marriage. As Jackie and I are facing this trial in our life, I find myself closer and more in love with her. I live my life for my wife, and it makes me happy. Because of my wife, I can keep pursuing happiness.