Day 234
Has anyone ever had an electric shock sensation creep up the back for no apparent reason? The slightest touch or brush can cause a strange tingling sensation. One of the possibilities is known as Lhermitte’s Sign. Lhermitte’s sign is found as a symptom in 33% of multiple scloerosis patients. Studies have also shown that the sign can be found as a side effect to patients who have undergone radiation to the back. So, why is my wife experiencing this sensation. Of course, my diagnosis may be completely false, but after much research this is the best explanation I could obtain. Then again, her tingling had transformed into back pain. It is utterly confusing. Is this another unexplained mystery of chemotherapy and radiation. Everybody has different symptoms before, during, and after therapy. How safe is cancer treating strategies?


I have been challenging myself with the question of why, what, and how lately. Why am I persisting and fighting with my wife, my career, and our future? What is making me a fighter that wants this marriage to flourish? How is Hodgkin’s changing our marriage, career, and future? I am sure others have different variations of these questions that apply to themselves. Of course, I did make my wedding vows and profess my love to my wife 6 months before she was diagnosed. Call me old fashioned, but I believe a persons vows should be honored and kept forever. But there must be further inspiration then repeating the words of the pastor at the altar. What drives me to keep going is the love I have for Jackie. If I love Jackie as much as I do, there will be a will and a way to succeed. Whether this will and way is found in your marriage, carrer, or yourself. That is my purpose.

Shamefully I did come to my ephiphany by watching a young skateboarder’s love for his sport propel him to the top of his sport, his company, and his friendships. However, it did make me realize I just needed to realize why I was doing, whom I was doing it for, and I will find a way to get there.